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14:36 - March 01, 2003 Anyway, it's signed. We don't have to worry anymore. On the way home I caught snowflakes in my mouth and stepped in puddles, and we laughed at how these wasn't an obvious catch in the lease, such as 'it is stated herein that the Tenant shall, on alternate Mondays, sell their Bodies on Twenty-Seventh Way, and turn over all Proceeds to the Landlord' or anything like that.
12:15 - February 28, 2003 I can't begin to touch on race relations issues; I've never been able to and I've never felt justified in doing so, but the only thing that seemed pure and innocent even then was when I was in kindergarten and would sit next to Secrena and take all her tiny black braids in my hand and marvel at the puff of hair at the end of them, and she would run her fingers all the way down through my long blond hair and smile at how they went through, and we could do this for hours.
21:18 - February 27, 2003 i wake up at table mesa. (translated: table table.) andrew is asleep on my shoulder. i was asleep on the window. my body jerks when i awaken and his head flies up. table mesa. two more stops; through south boulder my eyes burn and i put my fingers to them to keep them open. we get off at baseline because we're idiots and we've forgotten the length of that walk.
15:44 - February 27, 2003 It's funny how when you're caught up in the moment you think you're going to go home and become an activist and make a difference right then, and do everything you can to change things. It's almost a given, at the time. You wonder what's wrong with you that you haven't done so yet. But the feeling is gone within the hour after. In my case it slipped away in the snow outside the Ritchie Center. Camille was inside at the book signing (the book signing being switched to AFTERWARDS because of the delays) and we had agreed to meet by the lip sculptures outside when she was finished. It was about 23:00. The five of us hopped up and down and blew on our hands and made snow sculptures with our shoes. I didn't have a coat because it was only a short distance to her dorms, but we couldn't get in there without her. Literally hours passed. I believe it was about 1:15 when we gave up and went back to her dorm anyway. None of us are from Denver, and we had a rough time finding it, and the buses back to Boulder had long stopped running. I was livid. I can't remember the last time I really and truly felt like screaming in someone's face, the last time I was moved almost to tears by it. She's late to everything, she doesn't use common sense (prime example: her cell phone was off) and.. well... it's constant, and not just once in awhile. And whenever I mention it to her I get this huge attitude back, like I'm the monster for daring to bring it up. But it's okay. Because that's the only time we fight and it never lasts long, so I'd take that over something worse. We get back at 1:30, bug the guy at the front desk into letting us in, open her dorm room door, and there she is, asleep in her bed, her leftover Christmas lights flashing on and off. I have never understood how she sleeps with those on. At first I can't even speak. She says she looked for us. In the exact same place where we were for hours. I can't answer, so I don't. I swallow it back down my throat, where it burns for awhile, but I don't say anything about it for the rest of the night. The five of us sleep on the floor; nobody is going to class the next morning. We don't catch the B line until 11.
Those are the twenty hours.
12:59 - February 26, 2003
12:56 - February 24, 2003 This weekend has been a blurry mass of people. As of Sunday morning I had had enough, after having spent pretty much the last two days nonstop at some sort of twisted continuous fort party, in this stoned haze, and I escaped back to my room at about 3 PM to sit in a corner and read books and not talk to anyone. But then my dad called to say he'd gotten the tickets for London and while we were on the phone my door flew open and there was this stampede and flurry of feet and faces tumbling into my room demanding track-making privileges, which was the end of my quiet time. They didn't leave until probably 11 PM. I guess I'm not really used to, or not at all used to, having this big of a group of friends. I've always had one or two close friends and just a few others, around five or six, not more. But last night I believe it was more than six that tumbled into my room, and it was just a fraction of everyone. I love the variety, and I love everyone who I'm friends with, but it's exhausting sometimes. I haven't read a book through since that week I was deathly ill and couldn't move.
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