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9:21 p.m. - 2001-04-23 And I'm wondering how I should say this to a man who's most likely never used the word 'sensual' in his life. I never tried to portray 'sexual' and 'sensual' as being the same thing. I've always seen them separately. Sexuality is easy to have; it's a matter of pushing the right buttons, so to speak. Sensuality, I couldn't.... you can't just take someone to a field and wait for a bed of roses to slide under your bare toes and have the tall grass dew over and splash up when you fall. You can't touch cotton and wait for it to catch afire, you cannot be held without another willing to hold, and not so much willing as desiring, pure unadulterated desire. Throw logic away, let the wind catch it, combust into energy. Levitate the sky. That's sensuality. Combine the two, sexual and sensual, and you have reality in the palm of your hand to twist and distort as you please. The height of interpersonal and intrapersonal interaction as one, the only time it comes. When it comes. I wouldn't know how to put it, not to anyone who's never considered beauty as having a texture.
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